Benj-

hahas, how ridiculous, ever hear tears of blood? lols, i experience b4 ok? coz arhs, i was lyk cryin right, and den arhs.. my nose bleed.. -_- so see tears of blood...
if u dun find it funnie, lemme tell u, i dun think its funnie too... but my entire life is an utter joke nw, wd else can i do except laugh??

i dunno why u said dat, wad were u hopin to achieve? i admit for a moment there, i was rly rly scared.. but i knew it was just a joke..

i cant find de answers and i dun think i wanna noe aniwae, the truth hurts, it awaez has a nd awaez will, i nv shud hv let myself believe dat miracles do happen... coz though they do, so do disasters, if i want miracles i hv to be prepared for disasters as well, and im not.. so....

thx clara if ure readin this, u hv been a rly great hlp, i rly appreciate it, dun wry, i will find a wae out of this mess soon..

my lord, if u hv smth planned for me, i rly dun noe wad it is, but i seem to sense its two extreme opposites, its either this or dat, it will no longer be a in btw thing...

tears/blood [benj]