Benj-

tell me why im stupid? why do i awaez hurt myself?? i noe now i cant blame no one but myself, i allowed myself to hurt, let it dragged on and till now, i stil hvn stopped...

but i learn smth frm my chi teacher todae, learn two things in fact, de first is .... not gonna sae ... the 2nd is not to be too stubborn, to let go and learn to appreciate OTHER things... not that im able to achieve any of them... but i noe hu are those hu rly care for me

i thank dat special sumone for makin my life better, arnd u, i just forget all my unhappy stuff, thx so much... arnd u, i can be hu i wana be, i can be natural... if i were in a stormy sea, i guess u wud be de safety float den...

of coz my frens, hu i see much less these daes, due to de different cls arrangements, but i still do appreciate ALL of u, each and every one... so thx guys.. and of coz my other frens hu are nt in pj wif me, u all are veri impt to me too

i hv no idea wad to do now, when im alone, i will start thinkin of de recent past events... it makes me feel terrible... sumtimes its so bad i wish i nv hv to wake up de nxt dae.. but i still do aniwae...

well learning a few new songs now, though de songs themselve are old lah, but i juz fell in love wiif them aniwae, yi bi yi by fan wei qi and qian nian yi hou by lin jun jie, hahas, too bad there wun be nobdy to tell me how i sound, lols, i might snd lyk a toad and not noe it.. ha ha

ah wells, life has to go on, i believe dat as long as i persevere long enuff, things will work out right.. i have to believe dat.. i hv to...

persevere, if only i cud [benj]