Benj-

im contemplating quiting school.

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naz: heyy!! thanks for tagging.. ahh, its been so long since i last talk to you. i miss you very much. im sorry for the all the gloom. things just arent going quite well for me. but hey, hope you are doing great! update me ok?

edwina: thank you dear edwina, your presence is ever so comfortingg.. :) you're right, some people dont even have the chance to live and its so tragic, imagine the pain and grief his loved ones have to go thru.. and he will never get to be with any of them again. its unfair, why he has to suffer so. if i could, i wish i could take his place. its really so tragic. and it makes me mad why god willed it this way. god oh god, why??

sophie: bruda... thanks for all the advice today. you make a lot of sense, but sadly im not sensible, never was. my emotions have always ruled me and its just really really hard for me to keep trying. i dont know what to do. i really dont.

yang: heyyy clara!! hahas, really long time no talk. sadly everytime you come you must be overwhelmed by my depressing posts. hahas, im really sorry, hopefully life is going well for you. hahas not exactly, regarding your take on love, because if you have no feelings, there is no love, it has to be tgth, not seperate. but i agree its the feelings that hurt, and not love itself. i wish i was happy too. i really wish i was. siao dont apologise, i really appreciate the concern, thanks so much.. it helps. it really does.

sihui: hey S!! hahas, i know lah, i just had to ranted and vent my feelings that day, i still love her very much, but sometimes her insentivity and overbearing ways can get to me. but no matter what, i know she loves me.. very much. hahas, are we still gg back to css this friday?

someone: hello someone, unfilial is an understatement, i was a horrible ingrate, a disgusting bastard. hahas, yea. but i still had to find a way to vent my feelings. and i dont think shouting at my mum would be nice. killing myself is stupid too. but sometimes when everything crashes down on you, and you just cant take it. it just feels better to give up. maybe im weaker than others. but i no longer want to try, not after the same thing can happen time and time again, im tired. very tired. and it doesnt help when all other problems happen concurrently. haiz. but you do make sense, i guess. so yea, thanks

shitien: heyyyy, hahas, praying.. i wonder if god will even hear me. im such a loser, he probably hates me alr. okay, maybe not, but i bet he's upset with me for being so worthless and dejected. haiz. i miss god. very much. thanks shitien.. cya around in school..

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i really dont want to try anymore. i cant handle everything.

and it hurts so much to be hurt so many times.

im only human. a weak one.

i cannot keep going through the same pain over and over again. i cant.