Benj-

no my anger isnt abated. nor is my indignance. but i tire of petty ways and silly schemes.

and i shouldnt have to cheapen myself to stoop to your level. i shouldnt have to go against my conscience, my heart and morals. i compromise nothing, and you will get no satisfaction out of the situation.

my lord, i believe you who are all seeing, will see that the wicked are punished duely. myself included. but i accept your judgement and your punishment. and i really mean to repent for my sins. pray, do forgive me my lord. as always. but do put the wicked to rest.

i ask for your strength, your grace, your guidance to lead me to the right path. and that this time i may stay on this path.

i apologize again for those i may have hurt. but your forgiveness is not what i seek. your forgiveness means nothing anyway. not if you're guilty of exactly the same. but apologies are due when they are due. and i'll say it anyway.

ahhh. its nice to go back to silly ideals and daydreams. complete with a tinge of reality this time as well. i cant hate you. but i cant love you either. lol. how controversial.

cheem.

yup.

not my problem though.

i will master the art of all NOT seeing.