Benj-

its a damn sad dae.

i rly feel so helpless to see all my frens this way. and i see so many crying. sumhow i feel lyk crying but if i cry too, den how can i hlp? i hv to be strong. i hv to.

sumtimes i rly want I REALLY REALLY WANT to just take all ur pain away. i rly rly want to. and juz put a smile on ur face.

i noe wad it feels lyk hurting. i noe wad it feels lyk to be lost and devastated. i noe how life is lyk when u feel u hv no reason to go on. and its bcoz i noe, i rly dun wan ppl to go thru de same shit.

but alvin is right. i cant juz keep takin ppls problems and stuffing it on myself. it doesnt help anyone. but instead i'll share it. i share dat person's probs. and carry de burden tgth. this way, at least dey will now dat ppl are with them. by their side, ready to catch dem when dey fall, sharing their sadness and pain.

dats wad i wna do. i wna share all ur problems, and yet bring happiness and joy whenever possible. i wna see ppl laugh, and smile. and if ppl cry, i wna cry wif dem. hahas. yes, frens dun juz do things demselves. dey do it tgth.

i wun dump ppls problems on myself animore. but i will still feel bad if i cant make ppl happy, if i cant take their pain away. its juz natural alr.

i loves my frens so much. all of u. every single one of u. and it rly hurts me so much to see u all cry. so nxt time i cry wif u all. hahas. yah kinda lame la. but dats wad frens do.

thx alvin. u did help me. and thx for caring so much.

my lord. i still wna make everybody happi. but i will no longer try to dump everything on myself. but my frens welfare are MY responsibility. i wna protect dem and keep dem happi. and i hope u can help me. ty my lord.

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sophie: hahas. ty so much for being there. but im still not quite used to sharing my probs leh. hahas. i rly dun wna bother anione. or juz make things mor diff for ppl. but thx so much. u rawk la.

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