Benj-

it rly pains me to see my frens sad. it rly does.

but i hv no idea wad i can do, or say to hlp.

dat rly sucks. it rly does.

haiz, got a qs todae. heart or mind?

hahas, i guess for me de answer is veri obvious. i will choose de heart. awaez. i guess theres just no why, its just coz i noe i can trust my heart.

yea, no doubt, de heart will sumtimes make decisions dat hurt. AlOT. and sumtimes it may seem rly stupid and retarded, hahas, trust me on dat, been thru it and sTILL gg thru it.

dats why im stupid. i am. but i noe no matter how stupid it seems, i will still follow my heart. its just a veri natural thing for me. hahas

but i noe de lord will protect me and bless me. i juz noe it. and i trust him. so yea, i'll follow my heart.

anws, i keep gettin comments im "too nice" and u noe wad? i seriousli DUN think so. and theres no such thing as TOO nice. lyk seriousli. its just dat i care alot abt how my frens feel, and for dat matter, how everyone feels.

i noe how its lyk to hurt, to feel upset. and i hate it. and hu doesnt? dats why i wna try my bez to not let ppl feel this way. so wad if i hv to giv up juz a lil bit or give in a little bit, or juz be obliging? i rly dun care. as long as i can make ppl happi, and its within my means, why not?

i just dun wan ppl to feel sad. i juz dun. i rly rly noe wad being sad feels lyk. and i rly dun wan de ppl i love to go thru it. i juz dun.

hahas. gettin damn emo.

feel lyk cryin. haha

it hurts being sad. it hurts lyk hell

and i wish no one has to hurt.

no one has to be sad.

will my wish ever come true?

will my dream of makin everyone happi come true?

nah i dun think so.

but im not giving up.

im gonna keep tryin.

yups. i will.

coz no one deserves to be sad.

love ya all.

replies:

sophie: hahas yes!! dat dae was rly rly great. haha sure arhs, bring ur guitar soon!! i be ur vocalist!! BWAAHAHAS!! whEE!!

ttk: YAH!! hahas, lets take again soon too yaH??!! wahahas, miss all u guys >.< meet up soon ok? U TC TOO!! XD

edwina: bwahahas, dun be jealous lahs, go get a bf too!! den u can play de same thing!! bwahahas!! or if not, u can awaez by my 4th mistress.. LOL!!! tc k? come bck to skool soon hors? rly miss u leh. rest well!!

sophie: heys, bruda~ dun thank me leh, dats wad im suppose to do. i wna help u, and im more den glad to be able to share part of ur unhappiness. i rly hope i can make u happi too!! its not dat i dun believe in u.. I DO! but lyk my blog saes, my purpose is to make ppl happi. not add to ppl's troubles. u undst? all i want is for all of my frens to be happi. i dun wna go care bout my probs la. its not impt. ur probs are mor impt. hahas. tc k??

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