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no. todae didnt rly go well.

i hate it when my frens are angry. i rly do. i hate seeing them so upset.

haiz, todae alot of ppl were pissed during h2 econs. everybody was lyk bu shuang dis or dat.. and i at firz i tot mayb i cud lyk try to cheer everyone up. but den alot of bad vibes and pretty unpleasant language.

i rly cudnt bear it. and yea it might seem rly childish and all. but yah, i ran away. literally ran. when george called me, i was lyk.. juz run faster. and den sophie and kingyin called, but i didnt want to pick up.

im rly sorry guys. i noe i was rly a ass back den. but i rly didnt noe wad else to do.. i was lyk so lost. im rly not angry wif u all. in fact i was angry wif myself. i just saw evryone flare up and i cudnt do anth abt it. NOT a SINgle thing!

i rly hate myself.

how useless can i get right?? and not forgetting cowardly.

haiz. arent frens suppose to be happi tgth? arent we suppose to laugh tgth? hv fun tgth? i rly dun undst. am im being too naive??

i rly love my frens so much. but it rly hurts to see evryone so upset. it rly hurts alot. no i didnt cry in skool, how cud i? but i rly feel lyk cryin now la.

yes. im emo. weak. pathetic. useless. etcetc

oh how i hate myself now..

im fortunate coz there were ppl hu were there to make me feel better. thank u all veri much. rly rly thanks

well, at least i got one happi thing.






















NEO!! hahas. neos make me happi. no matter wad. i guess its coz i awaez feel de warmth of frens in dat machine. it may be a ex and to sum, retarded, machine. but to me.. its a haven for us to juz 4get everything and juz hv fun.

hahas. im gonna show it off. its one of de nicest ive taken as well. though there was onli soph, yuan and me. but still it was rly rly great!! i love it!!

well due to de horrible curfew my mum imposed on me, i had to go home straightawae, and sides, soph was still feelin a little unwell.. so yeos

i miss my old family!! i manage to see shitien todae. hahas shes awaez bz wif band.. aj band so hiong can?? lols. miss ya all mAN!!

haiz. todae rly didnt go well for me. I HATE MYSELF. yes ty veri much.

god i nd hlp. i nd to be less useless. i nd ur help. plz.

bye

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sophie: yups he did. hahas, its ok la. i dun mind. but i dun think i helped him much though.. lols. i hope i din add to his probs man. i loved todae neo. i rly do. thx bro, it rly made my dae less dreadful. thx

edwina: hahas sure u dun wan arhs?? dun ltr regret k?? hahas. im not stupid meh?? yah im not. i just realize.. im useless. yups. not stupid. haiz.. nw, RLY GLAD TO SEE U IN SKOOL TODAE!! XD

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