Benj-

it seems it worked.. finally... it took a long time.. but i succeeded.. my lord i nv forgot the pact i made with u.. and i noe u wud nv forget it as well.. but i fulfiled my end of the promise, so u muz promise me dat u wud awaez giv dat person happiness ok?? dun let my sacrifice be for nth..
hahas, i cudnt let go, i nv did realli let go.. so in de end, happiness wasnt realli his, but now, i can finally giv up de most precious thing i owned, and its much easier if dat person hates me.. now at least i can tell myself its over.. hahas, to those hu din believe it, see i told u so lahs.. but at least i din ruin tings dis time.. of coz de lord helped me alot as well.. thankew v much..

my lord, i thankew so much for answerin every single one of my prayers.. i dunno if dats a good thing but i noe u dun hv to do it, but still do it for me.. and u awaez warn me not to get involved so dat i dun hv to get hurt, but i stil do it.. and in de end kena hurt lyk siao.. den i kep askin "why?? why??" den i will rmb at dat time when u told me i shudnt get too involved..den all i can do is cry... but still i nv regret ani of my actions b4, nt a single time.. why is dat so??

ive got a major headache now... it hurts lyk shit... and its at de back of my head throbbing.. throb throb throb.. its damn painful.. mayb becoz im tryin nt to feel sad.. but i cant lie.. i am sad, i want to cry.. but i musnt.. i cnt regret now.. nt when i alr succeeded..

i rly need sumone now... i realli want my pain to go away... i feel so wronged and unfairly treated.. but its wad i asked for.. hu can i blame.. mayb dyin wun be so bad after all..

im nt dat strong [aollovin]