Benj-

todae there was a big commotion over prom seats. okay shant sae more.. but im gg to prom.. and i seriousli dunno wad to wear.. mayb a business t shirt dat looks sorta not so business like?? hahas, i rmb dat shirt is i pick for my dad one, he said it was too "fashionable" for him, so i wear lors!!! lols.. budden comes de prob of the pants.. where to find?? muz go buy arhs??

i feel helpless, doesn anibody hv advice to give sumone hu feels dat he isnt much help?? im awaez ready to hear dem..

i never ever wanted ppl to noe about de unhappiness i have to go thru, den why do i lyk type it on my blog??!! so stupid lors.. but i feel its de onli place i can place all my thots.. i dun wanna write.. so old fashioned.. ahh wells.. i shud try to lyk do it less aniwae..

its onli right now den i noe hu are de people hu i can realli depend on.. and i realli thank de lord so much for gvin me de chance to actualli be ur fren.. and i thank de lord even more dat u all are my frens.. u guys make me laugh, make me feel alive and make me continue hoping in life and stayin true to my dreams.. also u guys make me feel im nv alone.. realli thanx so much..
my frens in skool, hu nv fail to make me laugh.. hu i can joke with, and poke fun of.. lols.. thx alots.. erm i dun think i wanna name names but there are ppl hu i wud realli lyk to thank.. but i shall thank u in my heart.. lol..
of coz de guy hu awaez makes fun of me, suan me, pang seh me, make me feel bad as well as sing wif me, crap wif me, make me laugh, make me forget my probs, ahahas.. thx loy!!

my lord, de pain dat im gg thru now, is it wad i prayed for? or is it my self inflicted pain? wadeva it is.. im ready to embrace pain as a part of my life now.. but plz be there to carry it wif me... i dare not ask for much.. but onli dat u stay wif me, and not leave me, even if i do stray from u, my lord, bring me bck to ur light..

i found out that there has been one thing dat ive nv stopped gvin out, i nv stopped gvin my love, and i nv will.. my love for my family, my frens, my lord.. and its de onli thing which i will never run out off.. loves ya all!! im such an idealist.. ahhs wells.. i dun eva wanna be a realitist aniwae.. there too many of them aniwae.. its okae.. i rather be wierd and irritating than harsh and unfeeling. it helps keep me sane..

loves!!! [aollovin]