Benj-

olvl bio prac todae.. scru it lah.. i think i might flunk it lors... there was dis totalli random qs which i totalli blanked.. ah wells.. hu cares, its over.. good luck everybody hu took it!!

im feelin much better now.. becoz i finalli realized dat i accomplished wad i wanted, i got wad i wanted, why shudnt i be happi?? hahas, i was given a chance to love my frens and given a chance to do smth for them.. why shudnt i be happi?? isnt it wad i awaez wanted??

it took me long enuff to realize dat happiness will never be mine, i can nv go bck to b4, can nv experience dat sort of calm and pure joy i once possessed.. and de farnie thing is dat i actualli gave up my happiness to sumone hu totalli din appreciate it.. ahh wells.. i dun regret wad i did.. but i wish i still had dat sort of happiness.. u dunno how it feels man, to totalli nt feel anger at all.. to feel so calm dat it brings about a calmin effect to others as well... waaa i wish i stil had dat gift.. but nvm.. its gone..

im a little lost now though... its lyk my sense of direction is gone now.. which way am i suppose to go? wad am i suppose to do? so wad if my olvls are here.. it may be a impt part of my life.. but its not de most impt.. but i dun hv anithin to do for others now.. ohh wells.. mayb i cud think of myself for a change.. think about wad i wan, think about how to make myself happi.. NO WAY!!! DATS DISGUSTING!!! lolss

well im juz gonna keep moving forward aniwae.. i might find a new purpose soon.. =)

loves!! [benj]